A Girl in Love | Poetry

Another forgotten poem from summer. I’ve been in my feels.

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A Girl in Love

Written June 8, 2024

Displays of casual affection 
Have me in my feels.
I miss your touch,
And your voice,
And… everything.
This doesn’t feel real. 

So I’ll sit in my room,
And wish you were here,
Your face plastered across my mind,
Like boy band posters on my walls,
Watching time tick by,
And slowly disappear. 

I’m ready for us to really do this,  
It still feels like I am just playing pretend, 
Dreaming of our fantasy life,
Lost in make believe,
Forced to live with 
Loneliness as my friend.  

I’m playing in my Barbie dream house, 
and G.I. Joe is off to war. 
I want you to be my silly little boyfriend,
I can’t get enough,
I’m head over heels,
These feelings I can’t ignore. 

I want to be completely unserious,
Sending coy looks across the room, 
Laughing at inside jokes,
Sneaking away from the party 
Moments of hot and sweaty intimacy.
Mmmhhhh, my womb. 

This yearning takes me back to girlhood,
To pining over a crush from afar. 
Creating a story,
And refusing to admit
That my dreams are merely daydreams. 
My heart, aghast and ajar. 

All to distract me from my bleak reality. 
Because you’re not really here.
And I can’t take it. 
And maybe this too 
Is just another initiation 
Into love on a new frontier. 

And back into girlhood.
And the hours spent alone, 
Wishing it could be different. 
Because I’ve only ever been good
At yearning from afar,
And being on my own. 

17 Magazine didn’t prepare me for this. 
Your absence is only temporary.
Sometimes, you’re lucky enough to grow up 
and realize that everything changes, 
and everything stays the same. 
Is all this really necessary?

I guess we’re breaking 
All the rules together. 
Wishful thinking is part of the past. 
You’re so much more
Than a crush or silly boyfriend.
Fingers crossed for forever. 

To be a girl in love is a beautiful and heartbreaking thing. Yet, here we are ;)

With love,

Madison